This morning my daughter told me that her father (my ex husband) told her to remind me that I am another year older today. That I’m 44. That I am “getting old”. To this I merely snorted. Because I LOVE birthdays. Love them! I get excited when it’s coming, I tell anyone who will listen that it’s my birthday and I try and string it out for at least a week.
I made no secret about it at work, I told the shopkeeper at the local vintage shop this morning (to which she said “happy birthday” and gave me my purchase for half price) and I will be telling pretty much everyone I speak to throughout the day that today I am celebrating my birthday.
I care not a jot that I am another year older. I embrace it. I’m still here!
So far I’m loving being in my 40’s. Lots of things have changed for me since hitting the big four oh. I changed careers, I changed towns, I bought a house… it’s all been pretty good. There have been some lows and some scary times but most of all there has been a big bright shining light at the end of every tunnel I’ve reluctantly entered and this is pretty good I think.
A couple of weeks ago I was awaiting biopsy results and thinking the worst (as you do). Now I am thinking of all the possibilities that my 44th year can bring. I am something of an optimist with a fairly large pinch of cynicism thrown in. I can be a downer with the best of them. The black dog has come knocking at my door, many more times than I care to remember but for the most part, I feel lucky to be alive.
I was inviting someone to come to my birthday dinner the other day and she asked if it was a significant birthday (ie turning 40.. at least I think she meant 40, perhaps she thought 50? I’m pretty sure she didn’t mean 30). And I said, no, not significant as such, I just want to celebrate my birthday. Which I do.
So tonight I am headed out with friends from a long time ago and friends I didn’t even know on my birthday last year and I’m going to have a blast. There will be wine, a pub meal and conversation. This to me, is what a great birthday celebration is.
Wishing everyone born today a very happy birthday. You’re in good company, if I do say so myself!
Backing music: Happy Birthday – The Beatles
Nails: OPI – You Only Live Twice